The last couple of days I've been out of it. I still am. It took me an hour to gather things for the shower. I feel like I'm somewhere else and I definitely don't want to deal with people. I am trembling. I feel like I'm going to puke. I stopped taking my medications. They were making me sick. Amazingly, my arms which have been broken out and itching horribly for over a year now are not itching and the sores from scratching are healing too. But I guess I'm withdrawing from the meds, but I think it is for the better. So far its just a stir crazy, floating and shaking feeling. After I burned a wasp sting that itched horribly it all came clear. The meds were making me sick and itch. The burn stopped the itch, in a manner of speaking. Now that isn't going to become a habit, but I think I see some piercings or something not damaging coming. My friend E does piercings and it looks like I should go see him. Accupuncture would be great. I just don't have the money. It was great to have a release or super distraction, even if it was brief, from my turmoil inside. I should take better care of myself. It's just that it itched and wouldn't quit throbbing, and burning the stinger (which I could not get out) stopped it all in more than one way. So now I wonder what I am going to pierce.
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